Emotional Eating/ Transformation Expo 2012

Emotional Eating: A True Story

It has been one month since I stopped living to eat.  I am not ashamed to tell my truth, because I'm sure I'm not alone.  I remember the first time I began binge eating.  I was 19 years old, coming off of a bad breakup and the death of my beloved grandfather.  I really thought I was handling the aftermath well, but I was using food to comfort me.  After the initial shock, I stopped crying and ate.  I would eat a whole small pizza, and as many Krispy Kremes they could fit in a bag.  See, I had to be able to dispose of the evidence easily and quickly before I got home.  No one knew about my habit, but the scale doesn't lie.  From that point on, I healed all my wounds with food.  I lived my entire adult life obese.

As unhappy as I was with myself, I couldn't stop.  Before work, I would stop by Hardees and order 2 cinnamon raisin biscuits and a country ham biscuit.  I would eat the 2 cinnamon biscuits on the way to the building so no one would comment on how much the fat girl was eating.  That was about 1000 calories before 9am.  For lunch I would get either Chinese, a small pizza, ribs, steak, or burgers and fries and a soda.  That's another 1000+ calories.   After work I would stop by Popeye's or Taco Bell and eat in the parking lot.  When I got home I would pretend I hadn't eaten yet and eat the dinner that was prepared for me.  I'm not done yet.  When everyone was asleep, I would eat a big bowl of cereal.  I hid packages of Twinkies or cookies on the side of my dresser so no one could see from the doorway.  I was taking in over 2500 calories a day and I was never hungry, just starving.  Starving for something food could never fill.  

I heard that losing weight is 80% mind and 20% diet and exercise.  I don't know if that is a fact, but I really believe it.  I used to go to bed excited about waking up to eat breakfast.  I began work excited about what choice I'd make for lunch.  I could not drive past Arby's at night without stopping for mozzarella sticks.  Changing my mindset from that to following a structured diet like Weight Watchers is a test of my strength.  

Someone asked me where do I get my will power.  I told them I don't have will power.  I got faith.  A line from my new favorite song "Breaking of Day" says, "I may not be able to see it.  But in my heart, I'm just crazy enough to believe."  I had to give this thing over to God because it had a hold on me that I was not able to break by myself.  I have faith in Him, not me.  He will do His part and I will do mine.  I owe this peace to Him.   

Transformation Expo 2012

  This year I am yearning for more information on health.   More information on faith and strength.  More information on discipline in all aspects of my life.  I am very excited to attend my first Transformation Expo, March 17th from 12-6pm at the Richmond Convention Center.  For $15.00 I will get transforming seminars, praise and worship to live music from some of my favorite gospel artists, shopping with vendors, and meeting like minded people who are ready for a breakthrough.  I'm taking my bestie and my brother because I don't want to experience this life changing moment alone.  

For more information on the expo, follow this link-http://praiserichmond.com/praise-in-the-city/wpzz/save-the-date-transformation-expo-2012-is-coming-this-march/#more-544822.